wish you were here / everybody hurts

Misery...
i have trouble deciphering what has just happened in the last 3 weeks: i keep thinking about her , wishing she would be with us within just a phone call..

i even told myself, there's nothing worth to be happy for now that she's gone.. if i laugh i feel i'm acting like nothing happened. summed up by the songs below (hauntingly tells the story of what we're all going through):

The thought of never knowing
Would kill me just the same
The solitary blossom
Reminders of a friend

What are you saying?
You've got nothing to live for
You're tired and you're broken
You just can't free yourself

And all the words we've spoken
Are buried in the sand
They're raptured and you're broken
The taste of bitter glass

Your voluntary loving
Apologies have passed
And come around again
The fragments of a reason
The taste of bitter glass
( bitter glass, 2005)

You've gotta know
I think about you every day

You're lying awake on top of silver clouds
Sending Love back down

It's real love
Can't you feel it
Can't you breathe it in
(frequency, 2005)

Recovery
but, i am very fortunate to have friends who are around to help each other go through this, thanks shahril for your words (it is very meaningful, it rightly deserves to be quoted here):

Just remember this: Izma always does whatever is in her power to ensure all that is meaningful to her is/are happy. That is why when we laugh or feel happy it doesn’t mean nothing happened or that we are forgetting her. It means we are continuing to keep intact her love of all of us. And by staying happy we remember her for who she is and what she is to us, not for what had happened to her.

Rightly said. Got to dig some happy songs (been listening to brooding tunes lately). This is the ultimate recovery song - Everybody Hurts, by R.E.M

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone